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Monday afternoon, Jed and I chit-chatting the rush hour traffic on the way to the.... derma. He(my cousin) said that he watched The Last Samurai last night and quoted these lines:
Emperor Meiji: Tell me how he died.
Algren (Tom Cruise): I will tell you how he lived.
Katsumoto: You believe a man can change his destiny?
Algren: I think a man does what he can, until his destiny is revealed.
Yes the night owl has returned. Boohoohoo. Will again be working nights and sleeping days for the next four weeks. Countdown begins tonight. Boohoohoo. Sob sob sob. Oh well, what are you gonna do? Shrug.
We celebrated our Lolo Simeon's 3rd death anniversary last Sunday. Went to mass in San Rafael, went to the cemetery, prayed the rosary, asked for good intentions for both our grandparents' souls as a family. It was nice.
The past stays in the past. Yes, most of the time there are unresolved issues. But I've learned the hard way, that sometimes, there really are no answers. I'm talking about my past relationships. These are closed doors. Shut, locked, double-locked, throw away the key. So far, this has been the deal.
A person from the past has been the topic of many conversations, group emails, texts, even blogs from the AMCI community for a number of days now. This was the email message that started it all:
Below is an email reply to a good friend who shared to me her thoughts on love and marriage, having attended four weddings over the past month. The last one so solemn and meaningful that surged feelings in her that she had to write down and share to few close friends like moi.
1) That he’ll be God-fearing so that he will always respect you, 2) That he loves you deeply and he’ll take care of you, and 3) That he’ll always go out of his way to please you, now and especially in your olden days.I distinctly remember that you told that to me as well, in an elevator ride somewhere. I remember your words clearly, because I knew that you were saying something really important. I vowed then to somehow incorporate them with my own personal standards.
Recently I have been back in the loop with my older cousins. We've been chatting away, feebly trying to be updated with the years we've missed on each other's lives. It's been fun. It's been great.